My coach trainers are sharing great wisdom for contemplation, for me. Now. It is time. Rubber hits the road as the saying goes. It's time to look ever so deeply into why I am not fully applying myself to my business launch. What's going on love? Self imposed beliefs I've put on myself. Perhaps.
Stories of blame no longer have merit here. It's about me. Am I seeking to prove to the father, that I'm a loser, like he said to me. I'm now seeing however, how I just created him. I came in, this life, to clear that inner critic, the loser, the one who falls short, the one who fails others. It's all ultimately within me, these messages, and in the end, just silly mind chatter.
It's rather liberating to take the power away from the father. Yes father, I'm saying it, you are no longer responsible for how my life turns out. Can I get a hallelujah!
Yes! No more victim stances. I reclaim my projections. Let me use that energy for myself. Love it! I can feel the energy returning. Now I can use that attention to see me. Is it lethargy I am dealing with now? What's keeping me from moving forward? I don't need answers from without. I look within now. What is this frozen energy as I approach my launch? This is so very curious!
I'm not going to label it. I'm going to approach it with interest and care. True, I have seen that I need to manage my finances better. Before I increase my money earning power, I need to show to myself that I am a good money manager. Okay, so I'm looking at that now. Doing my taxes this week. Step by step, this puzzle will reveal itself.
Am I worth the effort? What a powerful question and query. What does that really mean, to me? Does money getting always require hard work, high self esteem and a huge inner drive? I'm not seeking money to prove anything. And my spiritual path reminds me that Source Creator is my true source, not money.
Do I have an ideal that everything within a path with heart must be joyful, light and happy?
To be continued. I wish to "sleep on" these questions and explorations. More will be revealed. I'm not pushing, I'm exploring. I'm building relationship and intimacy with my inner navigator and director.
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